Not Cut Out

I never was cut out
To be a scientist
In conventional terms
Abstracted from what I observe
All around my self
By definition
Soulless
Heartless
Displaced
Unreceptive
Unresponsive
Unalive
Unloving
Unloved
But instead stuck up
On a pedestal
Acclaiming and claiming
Superiority
Over All
Beneath my attention
Transmuted into breathless figures
Pushed and pulled by executive force
.
I was born to be natural
Feeling my way
Into deepening awareness
Knowing where I am placed
Inescapably situated
Amongst all that flows
Into and out from
Material form
Indefinably